Wednesday, 14 November 2007

beware: anger in proximity.

ooh no. oh no. no. you know what happened again? the great blackout. yes, the blackout that erased the whole xxx hectars of the campus of its electricity supply, again. this time, i was blogging and nothing could be retrieved of the draft.

i left the C&IT centre, looking forward to a brighter place to do some writing instead of typing, and i saw a uniformed man walked into a 'grey external storeroom-looking' thing to switch on some buttons. then, i heard booming motor sounds that made me think "there are two dozen harley davidsons in there that just simultaneously started the engines!" i peeked in and saw a large machine which i assume is a temporary generator to back up those admin and office buildings. ooh, just how much does the college owe TNB anyway? plus, im sure it wasnt the non-existant rain. a light drizzle could not do that much power shut down.

hey, dont leave yet. i havent even started ranting. this post has been tagged "anger management" alright. im not mad at the college for wiping out my previous blog post. may i begin.

college. people. they come hand-in-hand but you dont always get the perfect pair. at least, if you do get the good stuff all the time, someone has to pick up the bad apples right? what? you totally dont relate? well, go ahead read LOLing away or, goodbye.

the situation:
im taking the compulsory co-curricular programme this semester in contemporary dance. (it ends on the same weekend as CF.) there are two levels, and im currently in level one which requires each student to pair up for a paper assignment and an individual dance routine assessment. everyone was assigned the title "waltz" and i was assigned to a girl, S*M**. with four weeks to go, guess what happened up to today?

week one:
zero progress other than assigning ourselves to each other.

week two: assigning which half-half of the research criteria to each other.

week three:
assigning which half-half of the research criteria to each other. yeah, i know! then, i said i would but failed to email my draft to S*M** over the weekend. she hardly pest me about it. how nice.

week four, night before dateline: S*M** texted me that her comp is down and cannot retrieve anything from it. she asks me in HER WORDS/SMS "jz go2 the website,copy n paste oni..jz finish my part n tmr print it out..i'm so sorry about it.." i believe her and told her to use the CIT the (next) morning since she made it sound so easy, and dance doesnt start until 2pm, which is the assignment dateline and dance assessment day. i did not hear from her after that first and last reply. come to think of it, she never pest me. how nice.

week four, hours before dateline: S*M** still hasnt reply me about it. im itching to go ask the dance advisor, YYY for an extension but my class starts at 8.00am and the office doesnt open until 8.30am. after my 8-10am class, i went to CIT to complete the cover page of the assignment and continue to await S*M**'s half but no sign. still hopeful, i went to the office, but found it was lunch break and YYY wont be back until 1.30pm!

no kidding, i went back to CIT, skipped my 12-2pm lecture to complete the non-existant half of the assignment and printed it without S*M**'s name coz i was RUSHING so badly i dropped my only spectacle and stepped on it, and HONESTLY forgot to add her name since she dint even bother to tell me her full name and student ID number of which both were required to be on the cover page.

i arrived at the dance venue, met YYY, relate to her the problem of my partner's computer, and i was told to hand in the assignment as individual: leave out her name on the assignment. plus, i managed to get S*M** an extension until friday morning, no strings attached.


holding the 13 sheets of paper, i waited for S*M** at the dance venue for her last and final chance. at least if she completed her half by then even if it was the last-est minute i would run to the nearest printer and redo the pages. it was past 2pm and i had borrowed a stapler from a staff to bind the assignment. when we met, what happened was, sad to say, i had an unappreciative partner.

*warning: CAPS LOCK*

SU MAY! I CANNOT RUIN YOUR NAME, AND YET I CANNOT LEAVE OUT THE CO-STAR OF MY BLOG POST? PLEASE STOP BEING WHAT YOU ARE AND GOOGLE YOUR OWN NAME - COME HERE AND READ ME!

how nice of you to confront me calmly. i certainly was comfortable talking to you being the PR student that you are. but dont make fun of me when i get teary-eyed: it is my weakness that they water when i least need them. btw thanks for spreading the word to other people: i hope you are embarassed by your mistake and learn! nobody is gonna sympatise with you. here's why:

1. you keep repeating the "we are a pair" thing. telling me i shouldnt have left your name out. telling me you will pay for the printing and binding. telling me, "how could you do this to me?" CAN YOU EVEN ANSWER THAT IF I WERE TO ASK YOU BACK? dont you think its funny i can finish my half, skip a lecture and proper lunch, finish your half, print, bind, got an extension from the advisor, all before the dateline yet YOU CANNOT?

BY GEORGE! YOU DO NOT DESERVE FREE CREDIT ON THE ASSIGNMENT THAT I WORKED ALONE. AND I CERTAINLY DONT WANT YOUR MONEY FOR THE ASSIGNMENT! WHAT PART OF A PAIR HAVE YOU DONE?!

2. you dont like the fact that you have to work on the assignment individually under two days? why, my dear, why? i got YYY to grant you an extension - you are not in trouble as i had told you so. BUT YOU HAD TO TELL IT TO MY FACE, "DONT LIE. WHAT DID YOU TELL YYY?"

DONT LIE? DONT LIE, YOU SAY! I TRUST YOU TO THE T AND ALL YOU OFFER IS DOUBT OF MY HONESTY?! ITS ONLY MY FAULT WE PROCRASTINATE ON THE DANCE ASSIGNMENT? ITS ONLY MY FAULT YOU COULDNT SKIP A CLASS TO FINISH YOUR HALF ON THE DATELINE MORNING? ITS ONLY MY FAULT YOU GOT AN EXTENSION WHEN NOBODY ELSE WAS GRANTED? ASK YYY IF YOU DONT BELIEVE ME.

TELL ME, IF I CAN FINISH YOUR PART IN ONE DAY, WHY CANT YOU FINISH THE HALF (ASSIGNED TO ME) THAT'S LEFT, IN TWO DAYS? WHY? IS IT BECAUSE YOU NEED TO DO THE ENTIRE ASSIGNMENT FROM PAGE ONE? WHY NOT POSSIBLE WITH TWO DAYS?

3. exactly what sort of mishap happened to you before the dateline assignment? your computer broke down. your boyfriend dumped you. you lost your way home from clubbing. you had insomnia. you got up with a terrible hangover. you staggered to your 8am class. you had a lousy presentation which cost you 20% off your exam. you lost your contact lenses. you slept through your next class which cost you your mid term exam marks. you forgot the whole dance routine. you dont want to see me.

LOOK. I DONT CARE WHAT ARE YOUR EXCUSES BUT IF YOU WANT EXCUSE, I'LL GIVE YOU EXCUSES! I STAYED UP LATE WELL PAST MIDNIGHT. I HAVE OTHER ASSIGNMENTS TOO. I NEED SLEEP TOO. I HAVE TO TRAVEL UP TO TWO HOURS TO GET TO COLLEGE. I HAD AN 8.00AM CLASS. I ALSO HAVE A 12PM CLASS WHICH I SKIPPED. MY SPECTACLE GOT STEPPED ON AND SO BENT OUT OF SHAPE AND UNCOMFORTABLE TO WEAR. I DID NOT HAVE LUNCH. THANK GOODNESS FOR THE SLICE OF BREAD I TOOK FROM BREAKFAST.

conclusion:
i may have began on a bad start but i have done as best as i can to the last second for Su May and i. i honestly dont want to give her free credit because it is not fair to. im sorry she had to be the first i totally bail out on an assignment. but im not gonna let people leach from me again, you hear me! im sick of housing parasites. taking orders like a slave should only STAY in movies. taking orders like a maid should only STAY in cosplay. i am not anyone's but my own servant and master. dont order me around for real!

GO AHEAD. FLAME ME. SAY ITS MY FAULT. BLAME ME. POINT THE FINGER AT ME. if you do, chances are you are as much of a leach or lazybones or ENJOY BEING PUSHED AROUND.

7 comments:

Moomoocow1314 said...

welcome to the real world. Where you have to deal with nincompoops who don't give sh*t about you and try to be arrogant.

and calm down, no point being angry...

can i flame you?

Akiko said...

i dont care.
i dont know what is flaming.
i tahu ape tu flamingo je.

im looking forward to pantomime tho.

Moomoocow1314 said...

wow...you're actually letting me flame you..

but since i'm such a nice guy (cheh....), i won't corrupt your blog =x

MeLC said...

I got that before too. People like to take advantage of your good intentions. You have every right to be angry. It's okay to swear too. =P OMG! I'm actually encouraging you to swear. XD

Sakurazuka Minori said...

I have encounter that before,and get angry like mad while others don't understand why am i angry.You r consider lucky here compare to me,at least you hv friends here to encourage you,tell you it's ok to be angry,and even say that you can swear.as i my case,no one ever even understand me why i get angry and said that i LIKE to be angry.this is the reason i say i would never want to trust ppl again.

kilmenyanne said...

Cha cha.. darling. I'm looking forward to pantomime too. Is moocowmoo nic tham or boboy? Great rant, suggest you do more. Beats the hell out of pillow fights and counterstrike :D Seriously, next time flame my style: Remember how I blew off Chong Zhi Xiong over school magazine? "FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!!" hehe.

Akiko said...

you guys are so cool. i dont know why "best friends" must be superlative - otherwise you deserve it. for a day! XD

momocw> oh well, i still dunno whats a flame then.

melc> you cannot help being a swear ambassador? lemme take over. for a day!

monori> one thing is clear, let people hear the voice in your head when you're angry. its only for a day. then throw it away; im better now, thx~

kilmenyanne> i lost my vocabulary of swears. i always lied at swearing. rukun negara, librarian oath, bad words, etc. you name it, i lied there. XD

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